Once again woke up with a sensitive stomach, and I've been exhausted. There's a lot of stress going on at job #1/#3. So much that #3 (daycare managing) is totally interfering with teaching (job #1). I had to talk with my boss yesterday about it, and told her that in no uncertain terms this can NOT continue! She agreed - no shock, 2 of her kids are in my class! - but I'm serious! I can't keep doing 2 jobs within the timespan it usually takes me to do one job WELL.
So I think the stress is eating away at me, and I'm trying to soak up every sleeping minute I can.
Stress at home is fine! The Princess is behaving well (it IS her bday on Thursday...does that have something to do with it??) and the weather has been great so we've been spending a lot of time outside planting, gardening, etc. Hubby even put up a clothesline for this cheap-wad woman(!) and I got to put out my first load yesterday! So life at home has been pretty good, with the exception of workouts. At least I'm outside and MOVING, though....
...later...
Well, today was a pretty good day at work! Although my boss is still "playing" with the employee's schedules (driving us all NUTS!), the staff is mellowing out a bit and things are just starting to "flow..." FINALLY! However, I'm sure it's short lived...
The sun was shining today (which was odd - we were expecting thundershowers), so I got a bit of Vitamin D and I think that helped to mellow me out too...and my period started. (Sorry if that's TMI.) The first day I'm usually in a daze...
So it's a blah day around here for this ol' girl. Tomorrow is the Princess' 14th bday, and I wonder what that is going to bring. Luckily (?) for me, I have to work at job #2 tomorrow until 6, and so I'm urging hubby to go ahead with the party without me. It's not like she cares if I'm there anyway - she gets the presents whether I'm there or not! :) And I've already prepped her bday cake (her choice: strawberry cake with cream cheese frosting) and my asparagus. She's mostly excited that her daddy is grilling her steak. (Again, her bday dinner choice.) But since it's not one of our normal visitation days, they are only at the house for a limited time. That's ok with me - I'll miss most of the drama, I think. (I hope!) :) Actually, she's been pretty good this week. Only minor snarky things here and there. I think it's really helped that my daughter (a huge source of irritation for the Princess) has been out of the house after school playing with friends. A win-win for all!
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Day 8A - Tuesday
Ok...set my alarm for good intentions for working out today...middle of the night, change of plans. I think I food poisioned myself! (Just great...you know how people ask what restaurant that happened in...how do you say, "Oh no, it was all at home! I food poinsioned myself!" Urg - just great...)
We had leftovers for dinner last night, and it was either food poisioning or something did NOT agree with me the 2nd time around - bloated, gas, you name it! I went to bed before hubby (he was watching a Lonesome Dove marathon), and that NEVER happens! And I'm so sorry Biggest Loser, you may have people puking on the treadmill and LOVIN' it! But that's NOT how this girl rolls! (Isn't that just a whole new form of anorexia??? PUKING WHILE WORKING OUT?!?! Wow...) So with a slightly sensitive stomach today, I slept while I could.
However, to just stir up the stomach-pot, I AM doing something semi-new today...I'm adding flaxseed to my oatmeal today! While I was at Costco getting my eye exam, hubby texted over a list (luckily, without a cart, it was a SMALL list...well, small for Costco...) and I saw the flaxseed. I used to put flax in my smoothies and oatmeal before, and I don't know why I stopped??? So I'm going to be adding that today to get some Omega 3's and a bit more protein in that oatmeal.
I was just updating some stuff on my sparkpeople.com page. And I found a photo that I haven't seen in a LONG time...
Oh my gosh, this is WHY I HATE having my pictures taken, but honestly why I need to. Looking back on this I see such an unhappy person that was really struggling with herself. This was 3-4 years ago - not only just yesterday, but also a LIFETIME ago... Or at least it FEELS that way. I remember those capris - they BARELY fit in this picture, but I've since then thrown them away because they slide right off. They were size 18/20, and this was my low point - when I knew I couldn't just live this way anymore. Nothing fit, I felt GROSS, and I HAD to take a picture because I didn't SEE myself like this. Urg...I have to scroll my screen up because I just can't look at it anymore...
We had leftovers for dinner last night, and it was either food poisioning or something did NOT agree with me the 2nd time around - bloated, gas, you name it! I went to bed before hubby (he was watching a Lonesome Dove marathon), and that NEVER happens! And I'm so sorry Biggest Loser, you may have people puking on the treadmill and LOVIN' it! But that's NOT how this girl rolls! (Isn't that just a whole new form of anorexia??? PUKING WHILE WORKING OUT?!?! Wow...) So with a slightly sensitive stomach today, I slept while I could.
However, to just stir up the stomach-pot, I AM doing something semi-new today...I'm adding flaxseed to my oatmeal today! While I was at Costco getting my eye exam, hubby texted over a list (luckily, without a cart, it was a SMALL list...well, small for Costco...) and I saw the flaxseed. I used to put flax in my smoothies and oatmeal before, and I don't know why I stopped??? So I'm going to be adding that today to get some Omega 3's and a bit more protein in that oatmeal.
I was just updating some stuff on my sparkpeople.com page. And I found a photo that I haven't seen in a LONG time...
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Monday, April 9, 2012
Day 7A
Monday...oh, LORD it's a Monday!
Monday is normally my "off" day for workouts, and it seems to fit - at least for me. Whereas most people in the states are starting a new diet today, I'm giving myself rest after working my butt off all weekend - both literally and figuratively! (Weekends are my best workout days!) :-)
As for the food choices for today, I've been doing really well. I'm just struggling (still) with finding the time to track it all! But breakfast has been 1/2 cup oats with a 1/2 scoop of Whey Protein and a 1/2 cup of fruit (it's been strawberries & blueberries lately). YUM! Today for lunch...lunch?!?! I need to start taking my Shakeology for lunch! I didn't get a lunch (due to job #3 sneaking in there...lucky me!), and we had leftovers for dinner tonight. So my eating is still on track.
We didn't get the kids much candy (only a hollow chocolate bunny) for Easter, so there's no Easter treat temptations in the house - yay! Which is good, because I think the PMS cravings are starting to call my name again. Gee, it's so great being a woman sometimes! *sarcasm* But I don't know about OTHER women, but right after I start my period, my cravings for CRAP food subside, and I really start craving REAL food - fruits, veggies and everything else that I wish I would crave the other 29-30 days of the month. For the most part, I don't ever have a problem EATING those foods, but for those 2-3 days I really CRAVE them. (sorry guys, for the female insight...) But it's like since my body is purging of all that old "stuff" for those days, I need to refuel/refill my body with PURE fuel/food & ingredients. Even moreso than I normally do - NO artificial stuff whatsoever! Look past the cravings and look forward to those upcoming days...
Here's a shot of my family and I yesterday at Easter. What you can't see (very well, anyway) is that I'm rocking a SIZE 12 DRESS! (I was a 16 - and a TIGHT 16 - at the beginning of the year! WAHOO! ;-) And yes, hubby's liking the difference too...
Monday is normally my "off" day for workouts, and it seems to fit - at least for me. Whereas most people in the states are starting a new diet today, I'm giving myself rest after working my butt off all weekend - both literally and figuratively! (Weekends are my best workout days!) :-)
As for the food choices for today, I've been doing really well. I'm just struggling (still) with finding the time to track it all! But breakfast has been 1/2 cup oats with a 1/2 scoop of Whey Protein and a 1/2 cup of fruit (it's been strawberries & blueberries lately). YUM! Today for lunch...lunch?!?! I need to start taking my Shakeology for lunch! I didn't get a lunch (due to job #3 sneaking in there...lucky me!), and we had leftovers for dinner tonight. So my eating is still on track.
We didn't get the kids much candy (only a hollow chocolate bunny) for Easter, so there's no Easter treat temptations in the house - yay! Which is good, because I think the PMS cravings are starting to call my name again. Gee, it's so great being a woman sometimes! *sarcasm* But I don't know about OTHER women, but right after I start my period, my cravings for CRAP food subside, and I really start craving REAL food - fruits, veggies and everything else that I wish I would crave the other 29-30 days of the month. For the most part, I don't ever have a problem EATING those foods, but for those 2-3 days I really CRAVE them. (sorry guys, for the female insight...) But it's like since my body is purging of all that old "stuff" for those days, I need to refuel/refill my body with PURE fuel/food & ingredients. Even moreso than I normally do - NO artificial stuff whatsoever! Look past the cravings and look forward to those upcoming days...
Here's a shot of my family and I yesterday at Easter. What you can't see (very well, anyway) is that I'm rocking a SIZE 12 DRESS! (I was a 16 - and a TIGHT 16 - at the beginning of the year! WAHOO! ;-) And yes, hubby's liking the difference too...
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Day 4A, 5A & 6A
Ok...here I am, back in the saddle again. Honest. Here we go...
Workouts:
FRIDAY:
Treadmill - 1 hr, 36 min, 927 calories
SATURDAY:
Treadmill - 1 hr., 14 min., 629calories (before work!)
EASTER SUNDAY:
Treadmill - 49 min., 410 calories (before church!)
Honestly, I haven't been tracking my food - I am just not finding the time to get on the computer and do it! But I know I'm making good choices - I weighed in today at 188 lbs still, but 39% body fat (down 2 percent)! AND - for Easter Sunday I fit into a size 12 dress! (I was pushing a size 16 dress at the beginning of the year.) I still think it's mis-sized, but I had the size 14 at first, and had to take it back!
AND - NO Easter candy! The kids got 1 chocolate bunny each, and it left me with no temptations! Yay! Overall, a GREAT end to my spring break!
Workouts:
FRIDAY:
Treadmill - 1 hr, 36 min, 927 calories
SATURDAY:
Treadmill - 1 hr., 14 min., 629calories (before work!)
EASTER SUNDAY:
Treadmill - 49 min., 410 calories (before church!)
Honestly, I haven't been tracking my food - I am just not finding the time to get on the computer and do it! But I know I'm making good choices - I weighed in today at 188 lbs still, but 39% body fat (down 2 percent)! AND - for Easter Sunday I fit into a size 12 dress! (I was pushing a size 16 dress at the beginning of the year.) I still think it's mis-sized, but I had the size 14 at first, and had to take it back!
AND - NO Easter candy! The kids got 1 chocolate bunny each, and it left me with no temptations! Yay! Overall, a GREAT end to my spring break!
Thursday, April 5, 2012
The past 3 days...
Tuesday and Wednesday (the past two days ) have been my only "spring break."
For the most part, I just had a good time with my hubby and family. We had really nice weather on Tuesday, and so-so weather on Wednesday, so we took advantage of it! That's why I was hardly inside - much less on the computer.
Tuesday was mainly outside. We gardened - put in our 5 blueberry plants, planted seeds, etc. We had fun in the partially-cloudy weather, and then ended our day at the park where hubby and I took a 2.63 leisurely stroll. (Yes, I did end up mapping it on Sparkpeople - I wanted to know how far we went!) But it was LEISURELY! Hubby has taken "walks" with his ex-wife in the past, and she's left him in the dust so she can get a workout. I'm sorry, I know that some people like to work out with their spouses, and that's GREAT! But my husband doesn't want to workout with me, so I wanted him to understand when we take a WALK together, the purpose is to spend time together, walking, talking, etc. So we did. It was GREAT!
Yesterday, however, the rains returned and (oh crap), we found a hole in the roof of the garage. Oh crap...did I say that already? I really would like to say something stronger...
I had just made a resolve to NOT have 3 jobs this summer. I ENJOY having a day off - much less WITH my husband and family. I can't keep killing myself, especially for money, and it's my lack of faith that God will provide. So I'm feeling TESTED. I need to keep the faith that we'll have the $500-$600 to fix the roof of the garage, and that I don't need to continue with 3 jobs to do it.
So at the end of the day, the SK back to their mom's house, my two kids at friends' houses, it's just my hubby and me. He asks..."wanna go out for dinner?" I coulda throttled him! I told him: "AFTER we pay for the roof." I think our lunches and dinners out - and date nights as well - are on hold until AFTER the roof is fixed. *sigh*
However, I didn't track my food, but I know I did ok. No snacking, 3 small meals each day...and a walk thrown in there for good measure. Back on the saddle tomorrow!
For the most part, I just had a good time with my hubby and family. We had really nice weather on Tuesday, and so-so weather on Wednesday, so we took advantage of it! That's why I was hardly inside - much less on the computer.
Tuesday was mainly outside. We gardened - put in our 5 blueberry plants, planted seeds, etc. We had fun in the partially-cloudy weather, and then ended our day at the park where hubby and I took a 2.63 leisurely stroll. (Yes, I did end up mapping it on Sparkpeople - I wanted to know how far we went!) But it was LEISURELY! Hubby has taken "walks" with his ex-wife in the past, and she's left him in the dust so she can get a workout. I'm sorry, I know that some people like to work out with their spouses, and that's GREAT! But my husband doesn't want to workout with me, so I wanted him to understand when we take a WALK together, the purpose is to spend time together, walking, talking, etc. So we did. It was GREAT!
Yesterday, however, the rains returned and (oh crap), we found a hole in the roof of the garage. Oh crap...did I say that already? I really would like to say something stronger...
I had just made a resolve to NOT have 3 jobs this summer. I ENJOY having a day off - much less WITH my husband and family. I can't keep killing myself, especially for money, and it's my lack of faith that God will provide. So I'm feeling TESTED. I need to keep the faith that we'll have the $500-$600 to fix the roof of the garage, and that I don't need to continue with 3 jobs to do it.
So at the end of the day, the SK back to their mom's house, my two kids at friends' houses, it's just my hubby and me. He asks..."wanna go out for dinner?" I coulda throttled him! I told him: "AFTER we pay for the roof." I think our lunches and dinners out - and date nights as well - are on hold until AFTER the roof is fixed. *sigh*
However, I didn't track my food, but I know I did ok. No snacking, 3 small meals each day...and a walk thrown in there for good measure. Back on the saddle tomorrow!
Day 3A
As per normal Monday (even though it's spring break), it's my off workout day. That's good - leg muscles are a bit sore from JM's workout yesterday.
Today has been a bit tense around the house.....
The SK (step kids) are at the house Mon-Wed per normal, even though it's Spring Break. But I was seriously bummed because I had to go and be at work (Job #3) to fix lunch (cover for a staff person that was off today). Well, I got off at 2, and headed home. But the family had already had a great day, and then they were having lunch when I arrived.
And not only that, but because they had all worked so hard this morning on the garden (MY garden?!?!) hubby wants to reward them with root beer floats and a movie. That not only do not get to do because of my staff meeting tonight, but don't deserve to do. *jealousy monster*
I admit. I was a grump. I hate that I'm in a bad mood and have that mind set. I hate that I am JEALOUS that they got to stay home and do yard work, and I had to go work-work. So I bit off my husband's head about something DUMB (STUPID, STUPID ME!) and knew that I would just be a grump if I stuck around, so I headed back to work. I probably wouldn't have, but not only was my attitude crappy, but I had work to do at the computer (didn't matter at home vs. at work computer) and I have a staff meeting later tonight anyway so I knew I would have to come back.
I just know that as of right now it's 5pm, staff meeting is at 6:30. I'll try to make it quick (yeah, right), and then go home and eat humble pie. :-/
Today's food includes:
bfast: 1/2 cup of oatmeal, 1/2 scoop of whey protein
lunch: Shakeology - 1/2 chocolate, 1/2 tropical with Almond milk (sorry, Deb, not a fave combo for me)
So instead of looking backwards (other than knowing I need to apologize), I will look forward. What will tomorrow look like? What will be different? Hopefully I will not get any phone calls from job #3, and I'll at least have 2 days of my spring break to enjoy with the family, even with the SK there as well. I still have to work a LOT this week (job #2), but we have a coupon going, so I'm hoping that the time will just FLY on by!
Today has been a bit tense around the house.....
The SK (step kids) are at the house Mon-Wed per normal, even though it's Spring Break. But I was seriously bummed because I had to go and be at work (Job #3) to fix lunch (cover for a staff person that was off today). Well, I got off at 2, and headed home. But the family had already had a great day, and then they were having lunch when I arrived.
And not only that, but because they had all worked so hard this morning on the garden (MY garden?!?!) hubby wants to reward them with root beer floats and a movie. That not only do not get to do because of my staff meeting tonight, but don't deserve to do. *jealousy monster*
I admit. I was a grump. I hate that I'm in a bad mood and have that mind set. I hate that I am JEALOUS that they got to stay home and do yard work, and I had to go work-work. So I bit off my husband's head about something DUMB (STUPID, STUPID ME!) and knew that I would just be a grump if I stuck around, so I headed back to work. I probably wouldn't have, but not only was my attitude crappy, but I had work to do at the computer (didn't matter at home vs. at work computer) and I have a staff meeting later tonight anyway so I knew I would have to come back.
I just know that as of right now it's 5pm, staff meeting is at 6:30. I'll try to make it quick (yeah, right), and then go home and eat humble pie. :-/
Today's food includes:
bfast: 1/2 cup of oatmeal, 1/2 scoop of whey protein
lunch: Shakeology - 1/2 chocolate, 1/2 tropical with Almond milk (sorry, Deb, not a fave combo for me)
So instead of looking backwards (other than knowing I need to apologize), I will look forward. What will tomorrow look like? What will be different? Hopefully I will not get any phone calls from job #3, and I'll at least have 2 days of my spring break to enjoy with the family, even with the SK there as well. I still have to work a LOT this week (job #2), but we have a coupon going, so I'm hoping that the time will just FLY on by!
Monday, April 2, 2012
Day 2A (Day 2 Again)
Workouts:
Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred: 36 minutes, 328 calories
Treadmill walk: 2.1 miles in 35 min. 40 min total (with cooldown and stretching), 366 calories
I think it's really interesting that the treadmill "walk" and JM 30DS workouts were almost the same, calorie vs. calorie. However, I like the 30 DS because it's 3 min. of strength training, 2 min cardio and 1 min of abs all in 3 circuits. So although it's not as INTENSE with cardio, I know (espeically as a runner) I need to amp up my core and ST workouts. This is one way to do it. And my upper body is SO WEAK! Oi! Oh my gosh! I think I need to sneak in some push ups here and there during the day! Although I WILL say that I can NOW do 3 "regular" push ups (ie not on my knees) whereas I couldn't do ANY before! Yay me!
Nutrition:
Goal: 1,200 - 1,550
Calories consumed: ??
Still having a hard time FINDING the time to track.... Will try to do better tomorrow...
Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred: 36 minutes, 328 calories
Treadmill walk: 2.1 miles in 35 min. 40 min total (with cooldown and stretching), 366 calories
I think it's really interesting that the treadmill "walk" and JM 30DS workouts were almost the same, calorie vs. calorie. However, I like the 30 DS because it's 3 min. of strength training, 2 min cardio and 1 min of abs all in 3 circuits. So although it's not as INTENSE with cardio, I know (espeically as a runner) I need to amp up my core and ST workouts. This is one way to do it. And my upper body is SO WEAK! Oi! Oh my gosh! I think I need to sneak in some push ups here and there during the day! Although I WILL say that I can NOW do 3 "regular" push ups (ie not on my knees) whereas I couldn't do ANY before! Yay me!
Nutrition:
Goal: 1,200 - 1,550
Calories consumed: ??
Still having a hard time FINDING the time to track.... Will try to do better tomorrow...
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